He realized his lack of knowledge formed the basis of his unbelief. As Lewis explained in a letter written shortly after his transition, “What has been holding me back . . . has not been so much a difficulty in believing as a difficulty in knowing . . . you can’t believe a thing while you are ignorant what the thing is.”

Nicholi, Armand (2002-04-03). The Question of God (p. 93). Simon & Schuster, Inc.. Kindle Edition.

When he made that decision, he began to feel the presence of Him whom he had desperately wanted not to meet. Finally, Lewis surrendered. “You must picture me alone in that room in Magdalen, night after night, feeling, whenever my mind lifted even for a second from my work, the steady, unrelenting approach of Him whom I so earnestly desired not to meet. That which I greatly feared had at last come upon me. In the Trinity term . . . I gave in, and admitted that God was God and knelt and prayed: perhaps, that night the most dejected and reluctant convert in all England.”

Nicholi, Armand (2002-04-03). The Question of God (p. 85). Simon & Schuster, Inc.. Kindle Edition.

Christ’s cure is not teaching a horse exercises so he can jump higher and higher. Christianity is doing an operation on the horse so the horse can fly. 


- C.S. Lewis –